Everyone lies, right? Little white ones, big fat ones, you can't escape your whole life without a slip...for most people it's when their 6 years old, and really don't want a whole week without TV. Others, teenagers who snuck out and need to be able to go to the next football game. More seriously, someone hiding something from their spouse or partner.
The last time I lied about something, it wasn't anything important. Something that meant absolutely nothing, but in the eyes of the person I lied to, it grew to be something much more. If I could lie about that, then what else was I lying about? Then trust issues arise, and it's hard to recover from that in any relationship, whether it be parents, children, friends, or partners. I don't really know why I did it, I just did. Since then, I have made it a point to just own up to things. It doesn't matter how the other person reacts...the facts are the facts, and one day it will come out so you might as well go ahead and deal with it.
What I really don't get is someone that makes up things...lies that don't have any basis whatsoever. Just pure evil coming from a dark place...jealousy, anger, hurt, pride. Whatever the excuse, there is no excuse. Let someone love you for you...not based on what gossip you have, or what acheivements you've accomplished.
Have your lies ever caused someone heartache? I've been lied to countless times, and I don't think it ever gets any easier. It would've been so much better just to hear the truth from the get-go instead of finding out later, and realizing I didn't mean enough to this person for them to just give it to me straight. What's the worst that could happen? At least if you're honest in that moment, there's nothing to hold on to. No nervousness that one day they will find out...and maybe just maybe, it will make them realize that at least you did tell the truth, no matter how much it hurts.
I have always tried to live my life with honesty. Sure, I have my faults, but I have never told someone I loved them and not meant it. More over, I do not have the ability to love half-heartedly. This is the problem. I care about people so much, that I am too trusting, and don't want to believe that they could hurt me in that way. Common courtesy is not in some people's vocabulary, but I can't NOT display it. I am not perfect; I am messy, swear too much, am too opinionated, wear my heart on my sleeve, and take out my aggression where it isn't deserved sometimes. But I can honestly say that I feel pretty good about the relationships in my life. There really aren't any loose ends and everyone knows where I stand with them. So why is it so hard for some people to tell the truth?!
Like I said, I never claimed to be a saint. I'm sure that there will come a time in the future where I will lie to someone to spare their feelings...and I will feel bad about it. But, I know I am a good person at heart, and don't go around spreading lies and deceit wherever I go. I hope these people can sleep with a clear conscience, because I sure wouldn't be able to.
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